Deep Water Faith in the Shallow End

Driving home tonight I looked up in the sky and saw an amazing moon! It was a bright moon with a glowing ring around it, making it look as if i could just reach up and almost grab a hold of it. With Casting Crowns playing in the background(at volume 24, of course) I heard the words, "I know you're there, I know you see me, you're the air I breathe, you are the ground beneath me. I know you're there, I know you hear me, I can find you anywhere." As I gazed up at the moon and sang those words I felt GOD with his arms wrapped tight around me.  I pointed up at the moon as to say, "I know you hear me, tell me what it is you desire of me." Finding my place in this world is so much harder than I had anticipated but why would I need faith if I knew exactly where GOD was going to use or place me tomorrow! I know that he exsists in everything I just don't understand why I don't look for him even when I don't have a crisis.  Hearing the words, "I know you're there, I know you hear me," was so comforting.  I truly believe that he can hear me and last night when I needed some questions answered I realized fully what it means when people say GOD is everywhere.  

Last night as I laid in bed totally overwhelmed by what the day had brought, I pondered some intense questions.  Sometimes in moments like that I would just close my eyes and hope that my brain would just shut off and go to sleep, but last night I knew the issues were very important so I cried out for Jesus.  I remember hearing Craig Groschel saying "SEEK HIM" the other day in his message so I did just that.  Face down in the pillow I cried for JESUS.  "I need you, I praise you, I thank you, I worship you, I need you, I love you, please come to me. I need you to come crawl in bed with me and hold me.  Lay next to me and let me feel you, allow me to speak right into your ear.  Jesus, I am hurting, I am scared, i am broken and lost, I NEED YOU." After saying this for about 30 minutes i felt a peace and as God as my witness, when I moved my foot over to the left (to find a cold spot in the sheets) I felt an indention in my feather bed and covers that wasn't there before.  Jesus did just as I had asked, he came and laid right next to me and allowed me to whisper in his ear.  The next day he showed me to someone that could answer the question that I had been asking, "why are certain areas of my life suffering when i am doing everything GOD is asking me to do?" Answer: "because you aren't putting 100% in the areas in which he REALLY wants you."  Although the truth came as unwanted words they were exactly what I needed to hear.  I need to make changes to my priorities so that the things of GOD that are the most important don't suffer because of it.!